i found you.

again. and I'll find you again and again. Because there's never going to be an end to this. This realization hit me, a couple of hours ago. I still find you amazingly beautiful, and as much as I want to let go. There's no more way to do that, no more distractions to keep me, no more excuses or link to keep you away. I just really want to be with you. It's changing me from the inside out. I hate it. But I can't help it. I want to just give up, and give in. I'm still resisting. But I just really can't stand it anymore, I never could in the beginning. I got to stop finding you. You're not helpless, you don't need me and my shame. I found you again, please don't get lost again. Or I'll really have to resort into leaving you to find yourself, by yourself.