My haunting.

I thought everything was over, and done with. Yet with everything that I've been through. The saddening reality, that you've put me through. The salt the tears leave my eyes every morning. I want to forget it all. But you ALWAYS, always come back to haunt me. And the pain, keeps coming back. Like opening a healing wound, and this time, it's back to strike me three times as hard. When am I going to put you behind me, once and for all; When are you going to be done haunting my life. The mere thought of deleting your pictures, gives me a churning feeling in my stomach. I can't help but feel worse, everytime there's something new about your life, because I have access to it. I want to take all of that away, and just forget. As much as the good times were AMAZING, now they just hurt more than the bad times. Like a hurricane inside me again and again. I'd rather forget. Because I never loved anyone as much as I loved you. I hate saying that, because as truthful as it feels, reality is a harsh mistress, and it doesn't help that you're begging to be under her wing.

I don't want to resort to being numb to forget about you. Maybe I just need the perfect distraction. To distract me enough, to finally stop thinking of only you, day in and out, trying to compare people of how they're LIKE you. I just want it to stop. But even if I wanted to, I still can't resist you.