a cold but lovely soul from once upon a time.
Can melt my heart with little sense,
can make my day with captious words.
Helped me find the unthinkable,
even I was confused.
shed tears knowing it,
shed tears living it,
shed tears for it.
It made me realize,
letting you go is the "right thing".
From far away I yell,
yell for you to look back.
Did water leave your eyes, as it did mine?
To forget you, was to hate you, and to hate you,
was to hate me. To not accept, what I could be or have already become.
You differentiate right from wrong, as if you know.
Although it you are in the thinking of many, why not to mine?
Even from far away, I still feel your presence,
resonating from a hollow screen, and a mindless lens.
From feeling sorrow to feeling free, then sunk to disparity.
It haunts me, it hurts me, but above all it shames me,
because it is wrong in the eyes of many, in the eyes of God.
What more can I say, but you are a sin and vice versa.
I just miss everything that was. Miss it a lot. So much that it brings me to tears.
I love people, being around them, being myself.
If I had one wish, it's to hold you, to stroke my hands along your lovely hair, to see the brightness of your face, to feel your rosy cheeks. To achieve something that I feel is just so right, to attain it because it's so dangerous and wrong.
Hoping that even from far away, that's how you feel for me too.
To this very moment, my mind is clouded.
Fogged by your vague image. Your gestures still linger in my head, like a fresh wound.
Breathing heavily, knowing my heart races when I think of you. Thinking of what could have been. Thinking of the consequences more than the happiness.
Maybe I'm not cut out for this.
Even if you're far away, knowing you're there.
Living, Libelous and Loving
It still smudges an odd smirk or a smile to my daily life.
Take good care of yourself.
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